Life is endlessly mysterious. It is that mysteriousness that has inspired this post. A few weeks ago, I was taking a walk and had the thought I should cross the Habit Change science I had been reading with the Bhagavad Gita I had just ordered. The recommendation of this edition of the Gita came to me through the Habit Change post I had submitted to Reddit. These beautiful self-referencing loops direct my life.
My idea was simple; read the Gita, try to extract some kind of habit from each chapter, then create an Implementation Intention. The hope was to hone my Implementation Intention skill and attempt to ingrain into my nervous system some ancient and exalted wisdom.
For idiosyncratic reasons, 13 is a special number for me. When I see it in clusters and in remarkable coincidences, I choose to create the myth for myself that these are winks from a God beyond my understanding. I take them as nudges from a loving parent. When I was on my walk, and thought my Gita Habit thought, I saw 13s in the address of the house to my left, another 13 in the car license plate in front of me, and the gawddamn time was 1:30 even.
So hint heeded, I began reading.
I did read the Gita, and I did create Implementation Intentions for each chapter, but I felt myself straining. After finishing, I put the book down and dove right into the next book. One of the ways I procrastinate is to read another book. I am quite skilled at justifying avoiding in this way. But today, I faced an onslaught of winks from my myth’d God, and I had an insight.
The overall theme I derived from the Gita is that it is human to work, and that each of us has a sacred work to fulfill, a dharma. And that the essence of the spiritual life is to carry out your dharma without selfish attachment to the fruits of your dharma.
I think my dharma is to help people heal themselves. And currently, my expression of this work has been writing blog posts explaining the books I’m reading. Lately, I have been on the most productive streak my novice fingers have experienced. And, I have found myself whispering an invocation after every published post.
“You have the right to work, but never to the fruit of work. You should never engage in action for the sake of reward, nor should you long for inaction. Perform work in this world, Erick, as a man established within himself — without selfish attachments, and alike in success and defeat. For Dharma is perfect evenness of mind.”
In the Gita Krishna is saying this to Arjuna, and instead of Dharma, Krishna says Yoga. But I subbed in my name and switched yoga for Dharma because our lives are our myth and this is what I wanted to do lol.
The winks today helped me realize that I extracted from the Gita what I neededta. I need to create without attachment to the fruits. I am young and incubating. I want to help people and in order to do that I feel compelled to dive through swaths of information. Writing these posts helps me organize my thoughts, and maybe they well help one or two people.
The Implementation Intention
Whenever I write a blog post, I will read my Gita Invocation and release my attachment to the fruits of my work.